You know that voice in your head that says...
not now...later...I can't afford it...next time.
It would be nice if I had the money.... (or better if I had the time) Or I can't afford to miss work.....(you know thoses excuses)
Five years ago I was in financial crisis. So much so that I refused to spend $600 to fix my car...so I rode my bike for 3 months straight....
Yes...looking back, I realize how insane I was. I think I spent at least that in entertainment and random snacks or meals out...but to fix my car...that's ludicrous!!
Now,...5 years later, a thriving business, a single mom, and a world traveling entrepreneur, I'm willing to spend $600 on lots of things...most of them bring me joy & an aliveness of being!!
But let's go back to the beginning....to the place I was before.....
I knew I needed a change....I wanted help and so I went to massage therapists, paid for therapy, bargained my way through everything.....and yet...the one thing I refused to chose was the thing that would give me the most freedom....and the killer was....there was no discount..no bargaining....no wheeling and dealing my way down from the price.
So I took the leap....I made myself take out my credit card and forked over an amount of money on a workshop that I had never been willing to pay before....
yet I spent $25,000 in ONE YEAR on Grad School, was willing to spend a couple hundred dollars on good wine and food for my husband's birthday....I was willing to buy him a $500 camera and put it on the credit card...but I wasn't willing to spend money on something that would change my life...for good!!
Doesn't that seem insane??!!
Looking back now...it totally does, but when i was living paycheck to paycheck and struggling in my brain...I couldn't fathom putting that kind of money into my own personal growth. My point of view was...I can't afford it.
And then something crazy happened!!
I realized I could no longer continue telling myself lies about my life...I thought my life was GREAT and AMAZING...but truth is I was working 80+ hours a week. I was exhausted at the end of every day. I was using food to satiate a big hole in my life and I didn't even know it. And the kicker is I didn't have any time for myself!
I remember going to a christmas eve party. I arrived around 7:30pm after working an insane amount of hours that month and I got to the party, found the fireplace and sat and stared at the fire...I couldn't talk to anyone...like literally my brain could not spit out words...it was almost embarrassing. I left about an hour later. Went home and crashed.
That's when I knew something had to change.
It's hard to imagine spending alot of money on ourselves...on our spiritual, mental, and emotional growth, yet we'll go to costco and spend $500-$1000 as if material goods, food, groceries, etc, will fix the disconnect between the life we're living and the one we've decided we can't have.
That decision 5 years ago to spend $1,500 on myself was the best and hardest investment I ever made. I took an Access Consciousness 5 Day Retreat and everything in my life changed. I didn't have to effort the change....it happened gradually, and compared to EVERYTHING else I ever tried...it was the fastest, easiest, funnest change to date.
Fast forward 5 years later, I am an Access Consciousness Facilitator. I travel the world, my son comes with me on lots of trips, has more passport stamps than many American adults. and life is almost always amazing.
This isn't to brag, this is to say that there is no price for your happiness....for peace of mind, joy, and the knowing that you can truly have anything you desire....that is priceless.
So, next time you get invited to expand your life and living,....just ask yourself....what will my life look like in 5 years if I choose it?
You never know, you could just like you, your life, and your body that much more!!
Imagine who you'd be if you gave yourself the gift of you.........
Katherine McIntosh C.F.M.W., is an author, speaker, facilitator, coach, and business consultant. An Access Consciousness Certified Facilitator, she works with people from all over the world inspiring possibilities for people that are willing to take a leap of faith in themselves and their lives. Her greatest joy is traveling and helping people see their gifts and step into the joy that is possible. Her 3&1/2 year old son travels with her and spreads joy wherever he goes. One of Katherine's favorite classes to teach is a 5 Day Retreat consisting of the core classes from Access Consciousness. It's the best therapy she's ever had and loves facilitating others into more of them. For more info on Katherine visit www.katherinemcintosh.com/events
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